Day 6

I guess I should do a little update on Mama's Boy's potty training.
Today was day 6 and I am extremely happy to announce that he has not had any daytime accidents (except for naptime, which I don't really count at this early stage) in 2 days! He has been doing so well knowing when he has to go pee & will sometimes go on the potty without me asking if he needs to use it.
Poop is still an issue =/  Yesterday he went poop on the potty. It was a major surprise, I didn't even know he had pooped til he got off the potty. And there it was! LOL.  I showered him with tons of praise & even gave him a special snack and kept saying over & over how great it was and telling him that's what big boys do. But I guess it still didn't sink in =/
Last night, he was outside playing on the deck. My husband was watching him (or apparently not watching him) while he was doing some work around the yard & when he went to check on him, he found a huge pile of poop on the deck & Mama's boy was playing as if nothing had happened & he even told my husband he had to pee.  it had not been there when they first went outside so we're assuming that it came from Mama's boy, but he's not admitting to it, so it remains a mystery.

And then today, he pooped in his undies during nap time. And I had a heck of a time trying to take off his undies & not get the mushy poop eveywhere. It was so gross, I wanted to throw up. lol.

I took the kids to the park this morning & I was a little worried that he would pee in his undies while we were there, but I wanted to test him.  He passed! He didn't pee in his undies & when we were leaving, he told me he had to go. Luckily, I was smart enough to take the potty with us (I need to get one to keep in the car so I don't have to keep taking the one from the house.... especially with Donkey's summer soccer games starting next week)

So he's doing awesome with peeing on the potty but he's still having issues with pooping. I know we'll get there... just gotta take it day by day.

Day 4

I'm extremely frustrated & want to cry!
Today is day 4 and Alex is not progressing. Day 1 went as well (or as bad) as expected for day 1. Day 2 he made so much progress & was doing so well. Day 3 went well with peeing but he was still having issues pooping which made him resist the potty a little. And now today he's resisting the potty all the time and it has resulted in 3 pee accidents & 1 poop accident.

And now none of my kids are napping because his accidents interrupted nap time & woke everyone up.

I want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Before & Now

This is long overdue. I've never put my measurements or pics of myself on here... not sure why.

I was going to the gym at the begining of the year & they did my measurements when I first started & again when my membership ran out. My weight loss journey started July 2010, but I didn't write down any measurements then, so the first set of measurements that I have are from Jan 2011

Measurements 1/3/11 (when I started the gym)
Weight - 199.6
Bust - 42.5
Waist - 38
Hips - 53
Thighs - 28
Arms - 15
BMI - 35.4


Measurements 3/28/11 (when I left the gym)
Weight - 188
Bust - 41
Waist - 36
Hips - 48.5
Thigh - 27
Arms - 15
BMI - 33.3


Current measurements 6/28/11
Weight - 172
Bust - 39
Waist - 31
Hips - 45
Thighs - 23.5
Arms - 14
BMI - 30.5


WOW! to be considered "overweight" and no longer obese, my BMI has to be under 29.9... I'm almost there!!! YAY!
And look at those changes in the numbers!
Since January, I've lost 3.5 inches on my bust, 7 inches on my waist, 8 inches on my hips, 3.5 on each thigh & 1 on each arm that's 27.5 inches I've lost since January!!!


And now for some pictures...

BEFORE - so unflattering & gross

And now

Why is it so hard???

Why is potty training so hard?
We started training Mama's boy on Saturday. He had about a 50% success rate that first day. He sat on the potty willingly & was very excited about going on the potty. He was even sad when he got his undies wet and didn't want to put a diaper on to go to bed. he wanted his undies!!!
Then on Sunday, he went pee in the potty all day & only had damp undies one time.   First thing in the morning, he came into my room & told me he was up and I put him right on the potty and he went!!  He went poop (a little) in the potty once.... but then had a HUGE poopy accident in his undies.  A few times I didn't even have to tell him to sit on the potty... he would just get on it himself & go!! Overall it was a better day than the first.
That brings us to today. I thought it would be smooth sailing today but it seems like he actually regressed a little. He fought me most of the time & didn't want to sit on the potty (even though I knew he had to go).  He didn't have any pee accidents today, but that's because I made him sit on the potty... if it had been up to him, he wouldn't have initiated it. He also did not poop on the potty, Instead, he waited until he had his diaper on for naptime & went then. I think part of the reason why he fought me so much today is that he needed to poop & didn't want to go on the potty.
It just seems like we take 2 steps forward & 1 step back. =/


I guess I never realized how easy I had it with my oldest. He went poop on the potty the 2nd time we put him on there (by accident, I think) and after that, he was fine pooping on the potty & never pooped in his pants again. He was trained within 4 days and it just seemed so easy.
But this time around, I'm not so lucky. Mama's boy is difficult with everything though & I have to remind myself that. He's very resistant to change (just like me!), he's a Taurus & very stubborn like a bull! It was hard to break him of the bottle, but we stuck with it & eventually it happened. So this will happen too, we just have to give it time & keep being consistant & it will happen. 

12!

I went to Old Navy today and tried on a pair of jeans in a size 12.... they fit! They weren't too tight, they were just perfect! But, I didn't buy them. I'm trying to wait til I get to my goal weight to buy new clothes. I think it's a waste to spend money on new clothes when I'm only going to wear them for a few months.
But it still felt good to try them on & have them fit! That's an ego boost that I desperately needed!
But then... I looked at myself in the mirror & saw all my flaws and couldn't be happy anymore. My belly stuck out, my butts still too big,  etc.   If my hips weren't so wide, I would probably be in a size 8 right now. Ug, I hate my hips. I hate my whole body. =(

Don't tell me my baby girl isn't cute!!!!!!!

We had princess's birthday party today.   I was in the bedroom changing her and my cousin (who is the same age as my oldest son - 5) comes in and says "My mommy says Princess isn't cute."
who says that about a baby????
My aunt is having issues with her husband and has been taking it out on everyone. she's bi-polar & crazy lately and all of my aunts & my mom have had it with her.
But to say that about my daughter just floored me.

She's right though. My daughter isn't cute.... she's BEAUTIFUL! 

The scale hates me!!!

I knew all this (fast) weight loss was too good to be true. The scale has come to a screeching hault lately. For the past week & a half the scale has gone up an ounce or two, then down an ounce or two. up & down. frustrating.
At first, I thought it was because last week I ate like crap - cupcakes, pizza, frozen hot chocolate, candy, cookies, etc etc. But this week I have stayed OP 100% and even exercised a few times. and I step on the scale today to see it's gone up 4 ounces? seriously? WTF? I just want to scream!!!!!!!!!!
Along my weight loss journey I've been setting little mini goals for myself and I haven't achieved any of them on time. One was to be 190 by x-mas... only got to 193. another was to be 170 by my birthday & that was a total bust. I only made it to 180ish.
This time, I want to be 170 by July 15th. I'm 172 right now. I thought I was on track to achieve that goal & surpass it, but now my weight loss has come to a screeching hault that I might not even make it this time.

I'm so annoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so lazy

I just tried to exercise for the first time in almost 3 weeks.... I made it15 minutes without giving up. I hate exercise with a passion.  I don't want to exercise ever again!  I wish I didn't have to exercise. Heck, I'm losing weight without exercise, so what's the point?   But.... I know if I want  a toned body then I have to put in the work, but I just don't want to. I'm soooo lazy lately.



I want a toned, sexy body, but I just want to sit on my big fat butt and not work for it. Ug. why does it have to be so hard? 


And where the heck is my treadclimber?  Come on & get here already and make me like exercise again

Ehhh

I didn't lose anything this week. I kind of had a feeling that would happen & I keep telling myself that atleast it's not a gain, but it was still a big disappointment. I hate when I don't lose anything... it feels like a wasted week. But I have to keep telling myself this is a marathon not a sprint and if it takes me a little longer then others, then so be it.

Another thing I've been struggling with lately is my body image. I've lost 60+ pounds and instead of being happy about it &  happy with my new body... I can't help but hate my body even more. All I see when I look at myself are the flaws. All the saggy, excess skin that just hangs there, the still-too fat butt, hips, legs, arms, etc.  The last time I was this weight my body was so different. I was toned and thought I looked good... it's tough to compare myself to that last time. I have about 20 pounds left to go to my goal weight, but sometimes I feel like that just isn't enough. that even when I get to 150, I'm still not going to be happy with my body & I'm still going to be fat and hate the way I look. 

50.... 60... do I hear 65???

Wow, it's been awhile since I posted. I guess I should make an update about my weight loss progress.
As of last Saturday, I have lost 62. 6 pounds in a little less then 12 months! I'm hoping that this week I might hit the 65 pound mark. It's been a rough week though, so I'm not sure if it's possible.
The kids & I have had a busy week - R graduated from preschool, dentist appointment for me,  the boys had ear doctors appointments & we found out that A  needs to get his tubes redone. On top of all that, I had TONS of work to do. So I didn't get a chance to exercise at all this week  =/
I did manage to stay on plan with my eating though, so we'll see if that's enough to help me with a loss this week.

I was picked by cafe mom to get a FREE bowflex treadclimber. that was a month & a half ago and I'm still waiting for the darn thing to arrive. Hopefully it will be here by next week. I need to get back to a strict exercise routine & hopefully that will give me the motivation to get back on track. I'm losing weight pretty fast (don't know how I'm doing it without exercise), but since I'm not working out as much, I'm not toning up as much as I would like to be. There's so much excess skin flapping around and I'm losing weight in all the wrong areas and some areas are still huge (butt, belly, hips, thighs). Hopefully this treadclimber is going to help me tone & trim my lower half.

So anyway... gotta go crash on the couch. I'm exhausted from a long day. I'll let you know how the scale goes tomorrow!!