Time to find it again

I've completely lost my will power & motivation to lose weight. I still have 3 pounds or so to go until my Disney goal weight & another 10 (13 total) until my ultimate goal. I have only lost about 10 pounds since last July. I keep going up & down & up & down. I suck so badly. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control lately, especially on the weekends. I binge bad & then spend all week trying to fix it. I don't want to go back to the way I used to be, but I feel myself slipping back into old habits. My life has been hectic lately - we bought a house!! I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but that is just the way I am!! For the last 2 weeks I've been saying "I'm going to get back on track this week." and then I never do. My goal this week was to start my new exercise routine. I pushed myself to exercise two times but then I ate like crap so it's like "why did I bother exercising?" So now I'm starting over.... AGAIN (*eyeroll*).... tomorrow for real! . I really need to refocus & find my motivation again. I have 5 months til Disney. I already bought about 5 shirts to wear while I'm there & I can't gain any weight or they won't fit. lol. So I guess I will use that as my motivation. The first week getting back on track is always rough - all those "bad" food cravings taunting me. But I can't give in, not this time. I need to be stronger then my cravings. I know by week 2 or 3 they will start to taper off, it's just getting to that point is tough sometimes. But if I don't do it now, I'm just going to be in this vicious cycle where I'm 'starting over again" every week. So, here I go (again). Let's do this!